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[10 Sep 2006|02:01am] |
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I should have updated this sooner to be honest.
well anyway, I am now living in Newcastle and I bloody love it! My house people are great and i really like my new big massive bedroom. It is bloody amazing and nice and I have a fish, who I am going to call buddy, as in from the film elf.
I miss all my family and stuff especially charlie and my mum. Mum keeps sending me pictures of him and he looks frigging cute and he makes me want to go home.
Michael came to my house to stay for 2 nights the other day, it was really nice and I cant wait untill he moves up here for good because I know it is going to be amazing. like... FO SHO!
Mum i coming up on the 30th I think. I am really excited to see her, I didn't think it would be as hard as it was when I left her. i think i cried my eyes out for a goood half hour on the way home. People stared at me and asked me if I was okay, but I didn't really care. I am okay, I really like my new life, it' fantastic and I really can't wait until I start college in bout 2 weeks. It's going to be fab.
I have joined the publicity team for the Newcastle college students union. This should be good and help me with my course. Student union people usually piss me off though, i guess I will just have to tollerate and become one.
so, Newcastle... How good it it? Fooking good! I could so easily become addicted to shopping here, the shops are mint, I could also become addicted to bagles, Bagle of the north is fastly becoming my most favourite place to eat. =) Going to take mum there when she comes up with grandma at the end of the month.
Called home tonight, wanted to talk to mum, but instead I got Chris. Had a big long chat with him... I rubbed it in his face how fantastic it is up here. He told me he had been skipping school... he only started 2 days ago. I told him i was dissapointed.
so It's 2am and me and Aimee (My housemate) are just sat up on our laptops talking. It's a bit good. How could I ever really want to go home?
Less than a week now till Michael comes up!!
Did I mention that he got me a ring? =)
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[26 Aug 2006|10:24pm] |
I left work yesterday.
That kinda made me really sad, I don't think I showed it much.
I didn't say goodbye to certain people, I hope they got the picture! Hahahahh!
Kinda wish I hadn't left, mainly for Tom and Claire. :(
Anyway, moving soon! I am starting to brick it now that I am officialy unemployed and a student! :)
So erm... Michael got me a ring today, it's so beautiful. :) He also got me a FISH TANK!!! OMG! It Rhymes with WANK!
Later.
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| hathatehatework |
[08 Aug 2006|09:40am] |
Guh.
I need to rant, really badly.
I am sick of work. I have had enough. If it wasn't for the fact that I am moving in 3 weeks then I would have left already. I hate the actual job, it is shit, full on shit and the people make it even worse.
Ihave been given over time, which is great because I need it. what I hate it stupid jerks in my office. I hate them. I hate the way they have been planning a trip to Newcastle and I have been the only person with a shift to stop them all going at a set time and they have constantloy been talking about me, even when I am there saying 'oh we just need to get amy to swap' and I just sit there isn silence hanging on to my shift. They have made me feel like crap and like some bitch for stopping them go away, so yesterday I finally gave in and that just fucked things up for me and Michael.
I don't know what to do anymore. I want to be with Michael more than anything, I seriously mean it too. If I didn't want to then I wouldn't me working my ass off to get enough money to move to Newcastle. He is the main reason I am going there. I don't want to be without him. I can't and if it mean working all this time right now just so I can have stuff better in the long run then it is worth it.
It just hurt last night when he was on the phne to me, he sounded angry at nasty towards me... I hate that. I love him and I will do anything I can for him... I just hope he sees that
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| Bleeh |
[06 Aug 2006|07:34pm] |
I have cold feet and I am absolutly bricking it.
I don't know what to do.
I thought things where okay, but I don't know, he seemed angry and pissed of to be staying with me last night.
That hurt... It's got me thinking.
To top it off, after 2 weeks of smoking followed by a week of him wheezing and last night waking up every 15 mins unable to breath, he is now getting high... because that's going to help
I don't know. I think I am just feeling pretty shitty
I'v spent most of my day download and putting together a mix tape for him, but I can't be bothered now. I'm going to go to bed...
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| Hmm |
[03 Aug 2006|01:07pm] |
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I'm going home tonight.
First night alone since Sunday, this makes me sad.
Thins with my boy now are like... Wow! I like it, I hope to God it stays this way.
4 weeks today will be my last day at work here! I'm so excited. Time is going so fast though, It seems like only a few weeks ago that I made the decision to go and now I just want to get up and go!
I'm bored at work. Been updating my website, but all my pictures are on another photobucket account that I can't acess at work. Idk why because I can with my other one.
Hmmp.
Parents go away tomorrow night. This makes me happy.
I hate ***** who is sat next to me, can HE JUST FUCKING EAT POLOS QUIETLY!
*CRUNCH, CRUNCH, CRUNCH, CRUNCH... SMACK... SILENCE*
I wish...
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| Wahy! |
[01 Aug 2006|02:00pm] |
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Michael is back! :)
He came back Friday, I saw him Friday daytime and then had to wait till Sunday night to see him again, It was well worth it though.
Been staying at his house, been great. He is coimg to mine tonight and i'm all excited. He can sleep on my matress on my floor and it will be really good.
I have only four weeks left untill I mive, I'm very scared and very skint. I need more money. Also, I don't know if I really can be bothered to study at College/Uni.
Hmmpf.
Adam [my x] moves today, I was going to go see him before he left, but I decided that that was not a good move and I didn't really want to.
Went to Adelphi last night with Michael. Was great! :)
I want to go home. 11 hours overtime this week... -dies-
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| I was going to, but forgot |
[26 Jul 2006|12:55pm] |
I was going to write in this most days while Michael was away, guess it didn’t really happen. He is flying back tomorrow and I am hopefully seeing him on Friday. I have booked the day off.
Recently I have had loads of weird dreams, involving the devil, lord of the rings style and just general weirdness. Kind of scary really.
I have been working over time since I have just over 5 weeks until I move and I need to pay for stuff!
Work is boring, Tom had a week of and I got bored. We made origami penises.
I can’t be bothered to write in here.
Not today anyway.
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[17 Jul 2006|12:03pm] |
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Oh. I thought I should update. Lot's has gone on.
First of, Michael and I went to the barn for the weekend, we started of being a bit shitty with each other, he gor really drunk and I couldn't be bothered with it. After that we were fine, untill the ride home... Hmmp. I don't want to talk about it.
Anyway, we have had a few arguments and the other night I basicaly said that we start being together and trying or not at all... we seem to be okay now. Sadly though he has gone on holiday fro 2 weeks and it's my second day without hima dn already I feel crappy. I don't think I can last. I need him and him being away like this has really made me realise it.
I love him.
Rachel came over on Saturday, that was fun. we went drinking in Driffield and stuff happened and I ended up leaving her in Driffield to come home. She came round the next day though. Silly girl.
Work... I am working 50 hours this week and untill Friday next week, when Michaels back, I only have one day off. Thank God, work passes time.
The last few days have been filled with me filling in UCAS forms and sorting out to go to University/College. God, it's so complicated.
Heeeelp!
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[03 Jul 2006|05:26pm] |
Working.
Again.
Why?
My estate agents from Newcastle emailed me this morning. Basically the room I put down for they have let out, but thats cool because I am now getting a bloody massive room for £5 extra!
I can't wait!
Update later, tosser next to me is reading! GRrrrrrrr!
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| Yup. I did it! |
[02 Jul 2006|08:39pm] |
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I just updated my colours. I did it all by myself!
Oh yeahh!
God, I miss him right now. I hate that feeling when we spend ages together then apart...
I'm aching for you baby
I can't pretend I'm not
I need to see you naked
In your body and your thought
I've got you like a habit
And I'll never get enough
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[02 Jul 2006|03:07pm] |
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Uhh. It's Sunday and I am working. Why, oh why, oh, why?
I have taken all of 4 calls today. It's stupid.
Anyway, I went out last night with Michael! ahah! Was a good night, no arguments. Everything seems fucking fantastic at the moment. I can't believe it. Also, he is going away in a few days... What am I going to do? we have never been apart for more than a few days and.. uhh! No! although, not long after, we are going to be moving and living close to each other in Newcastle!
My head feels like crap today, I feel like crap. I haven't slept for a few days.
Monday, stuff happened and I was worrying about michael all night.
Tuesday, I went to see hima nd stuff, dind't really sleep good.
Wednesday, went to Newcastle felt like. excited to sleep.
Thursday, did over time at work. was up at 8am.
Friday, Michael stayed over, no sleep.
Saturday, work at 8... uuh, went out saturday night...
So now... I am falling apart almost. Heeelp! Work tomorro!
Anyways, I am happy today. I am in loooove!
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| But, it's a saturday! |
[01 Jul 2006|09:21am] |
So, I went to Newcastle. It's great. I am 99% sure I have a house now, I am just in the process of filling out all the forms ect. So YEY! I am getting away from this hell hole.
I'm at work today... why? Nobody calls this helpdesk on a Saturday, besides 5 /6 sad lonley people. Guuh.
Michael stayed over last night. Hurrah!
Going to a party tonight... If I make it through today!
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| I'll lie here with you |
[28 Jun 2006|12:14am] |
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Afeeeeeee! |
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Just been into town to meet Michael - looks like things are on the up again. I don't honestly know how long for though, hmmm. Anyway, he is going away for 2 weeks soon, It will give me time to think.
Anyway, It's midnight. Just watched lost. I wish I could just watch them all at once, what is with that programme? I can't decide if I like it or not... I think it frustrates me more than anything and I just keep going back for more because it stupid.
I'm online mainly to search for "park and rides" in Newcastle, unfortunatly, it's not as dirty as it sounds! I just need to get around Newcastle tomorro and I think town centre will be too busy to park in. I say for tomorro, but I now mean today, like in 7 hours.
I have also been getting side tracked by slash communities on here... there arn't enough! Nooo!
I have been listening to AFI constantly today. When I haven't been listening to them I have been putting together a tape for Michael for his car. He doesn't have a CD player and his MP3 is... well.. Shit!
Here is what I have so far. Most of the songs I picked for the lyrics.
The theme is 'Songs to drive to when you miss and love someone' I know I'm soppy.
Anyway:-
1) Athlete - You've got the style
2) Jenny Lewis and the Watson Twins - You are what you love (save target as)
"But you are what you love, and not what loves you back
That's why I'm here on your doorstep, pleading for you to take me back"
3) The Zutons - You've got a friend in me
4) Polaroid - So damn beautiful (Amazing song. Used in Nip/Tuck)
"I will see you rise again, and I will feel you fly again
You're so wonderful, I will be there by your side
You're so wonderful
You're so damn beautiful"
5) Belle and Sebastian - She's loosing it (This song just reminds me of Michael)
6) The Cure - Pictures of you
7) Nightmare Of You - My name is trouble
"I want to kiss you on the mouth and tell you I'm your biggest fan"
8) Magnetic Fields - Let's pretend we're bunny rabbits (save target as)
9) Cat Power - I found a reson
10) Daniel Johnston - Honey I sure miss you
"Honey I sure miss you, and I want to kiss you"
11) Jimmy Eat World - For me this is heaven
12) Tilly and the Wall - Fell down the stairs (save target as)
13) The Beatles - Don't let me down
14) Jack Johnson - Better together
"It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together"
There is more to add. I'm just unsure at the moment! I want this to be a perfect tape.
My eyes are stinging now, I must sleep. 3 hour car ride to anticipate soon! Nooo!
Goodnight!
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